happy valentines day!

valentines falls on the first day of CNY this year. that's why even though it's only 2 weeks away, i'm in no v-day mood. cos i haven't bought new clothes!!

went shopping with 媽 and 親愛的. walked half the day at parco, bugis street, OG, and the many random little shops around the area. and went home with 2 tops. for casual wear only lor! hais. must 加油 liao.

and so so tired. feet, back and shoulder aching badly. 不認老都不行了。plus the hot sun and passing shower. argh!

我忍忍忍！！！

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currently so hooked on this oldie.

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...我也有我感覺，難道要遮掩...

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sway 到極點

super x100 bad day today!

early in the morning, i was trying to move the stack of drawings that hel had commented on in yesterday's meeting. when i don't know what happened, it slipped out of my hands and fell all over the floor, successfully breaking my last fingernail in the process. was horrified at how deep the nail broke. snipped off the broken nail, stared at the rest, and snipped all of them short. sb heartpain since i was keeping them for CNY. and did i mention the nailbed bled? =(

was looking forward to nights out in town with SSD, to cheer me up. when he said he was STILL sick. i suggested meeting him for dinner at kovan, which was near his place. was already damn sian. after that he said he would go see a doc. so i suggested he stay at home then. damn f***king sian liao.

then 媽 snatched a piece of paper through my fingers, and it neatly sliced quite a deep cut in between. damn pain when it comes in contact with water. >.< i know not her fault; just damn unlucky.

felt so lost when i actually didn't know where to go after work. sbs.

and the last straw came when hel seemed to push all the blame to me when it's f***king obvious it wasn't my fault. i don't understand how it can be "i know it's not your MISTAKE..." when she thought it was me who sent the email, to "i won't say that it's a MISTAKE..." when she found out it was actually CH who sent it. so obvious she's on his side. i don't really give a damn if they're into 姐弟戀, but i wish she could be more professional. -_-

and worked till 8plus. so not fun.

please let there not be any hiccups tomorrow. *crosses fingers and toes*

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what is fair?

i find that so sweet. ^^

i should have taken up his offer. cos it was almost 830pm when we reached singpost and i was so so starving! >.< all thanks to the 'last minute' 2-hour admin meeting with hel. again.

1 and a half year ago, i really believed it when she said we could go to her if we had problems. 1 and a half year later, i realized - she was the root of our problems. i learned not to bring up anything at meetings cos any problems we faced, she would find a way to rebuke and make it seem like it is our fault.

especially ever since the manager CH came on board, she depended on him for practically everything. it pissed me off that at today's meeting, she actually became very agitated and defended him so strongly when accounts side brought up some problems they had with him. 親愛的 was about to cry already and she continued pressing her without even giving her a chance to explain.

so angry! shouldn't she be on our admin side instead of project's side? she still had the cheek to say "i'm not trying to protect anyone, but you must try to understand his situation and empathize." like F lor. so who's gonna empathize us? -_- and she made it sound like we're not busy at all lor. zzZz.

all 5 of us were grumbling as we walked out, continued grumbling on the bus there, and all throughout dinner as well. super super fun venting our frustrations together, poking fun at the 四角關係 of the management, and stuff like that. if there's anything good about hel, it would be bonding us together.

lols. the meeting had turned our steamboat dinner into sushi dinner but i don't mind. i could satisfy my sushi craving, and it's cheaper! not even ten bucks for a super full dinner. uber shiok! :D i love the suki group. boycott sakae!!

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why does time pass so fast? am getting pretty freaked out by sunday. O_o

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words of wisdom

imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. you name them - Work, Family, Health, Friends and Spirit - and you're keeping all of these in the air.

you will soon understand that Work is a rubber ball. if you drop it, it will bounce back.

but the other four balls - Family, Health, Friends and Spirit - are made of glass. if you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. they will never be the same. you must understand that and strive for it.

work efficiently during office hours and leave on time. give the required time to your family and friends, and have proper rest.

- bryan dyson (CEO of coca cola)

you know what? i'd say the same thing. IF i were in his position. and i'm sure it doesn't apply to his employees either.

(-_-)

pretty boring these few days, considering that majority of my waking time has been taken up by that big stupid rubber ball. tsk. i wanna 發洩 about work, but suddenly i don't know where to start. sighhhh.

so no interesting posts. not that anyone cares. hehx.

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原來就是這樣。

i was coming down the escalator when i had this weird fuzzy feeling. then it suddenly dawned upon me, so this is pak-tor-ing. is this what i've been missing out in the past? 謝謝你，SSD. :)

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guess where?

hahas. went vivo and watched hachiko! the dog's super super cute! (and so is richard gere.) can't remember if the movie followed the book or not, but anyways, i enjoyed it. and so so touching! i liked how the movie ended with some trivia on the actual story. a simple yet meaningful movie. =]

then went 'rooftop'. can see sentosa IR leh! saw the tops of far far away castle, and the roller coaster! i so wanna see the egyptian section! but entrance fee is unreasonably expensive. booo.

sighhh. why is there work tomorrow? T_T

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facts of life

simply the facts: whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. give her sperm, she will make a baby. give her a house, she will give you a home. give her groceries, she will give you a meal. give her a smile, she will give you her heart. she multiplies and enlarges what she is given.

so...if you give her any crap, be ready to receive tons of shit~!!!

super true!! =\

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all because of you

came across this song on the radio. nice nice!



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satisfied sushi craving at singpost's suki today. *happy* tgif tomorrow. can't wait to sleep in. lol.

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move over auditionsea!

(right-click, view image)

familiar? i so love couple-mode. :P

i wish i knew how to convert the whole video from rwv to something uploadable. so i can show you guys how very pretty the dance moves are! it's so much better, nicer, sexier, and sweeter than auditionsea.

it has all that auditionsea has, and even more! like better moves and graphics, backgrounds, avatars, makeup, clothes and hairstyles, and even the baby option! though i'm not quite sure how to obtain it yet. music variety is definitely impressive - english, chinese, korean, japanese, and even cantonese songs!

for once, i'm glad auditionsea isn't working for me. welcome to STEPS. =)

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why me?!?

debated whether to post this or not, cos i know rants about work isn't exactly interesting. and if i password-protect it, concerned people like SSD and gary would probably dig it out from me, which i don't particularly like. (it's protected for a reason!)

but then, heck, it's my blog. and if i can't post what's on my mind on my own blog, then what's the point?

so yes. i'm going to rant. about work. now.

1. my engineer moved my scaffolding without informing me. so it becomes my fault? he informs supplier to collect only half of the scaffolds, even after i told him i had arranged for them to collect ALL. so it becomes my fault?

2. subcon brings parts of it to another site without informing. AND when he's not supposed to. my fault also? he refuses to return it nor pay the charges. my fault? and does that give him the right to scold and shout at me because it's supposedly 'my fault'?

and the best part? why am i the one to answer for it to the higher management?

it may not involve a huge sum of money, but it's one of those times where i feel so frustrated cos i have to clear up the mess (urgently) and it seems like everyone is washing their hands off it. i hate feeling helpless.

guess what? bad luck doesn't stop here. was so looking forward to swimming and steaming, and it had to rain. well done.

mood was totally rockbottom and demoralized. i think i kinda took it out on SSD, who was already feeling not too good. i feel so guilty now! reminds me of how i used to behave back then. hais. guess i just have to make it up to him and hope he won't be too mad at me.

thinking of work tomorrow - very demoralized.
looking at course fees - very very demoralized.

:(

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short update today.

i finally attempted to rescape my tank. haven't really paid much attention to it for the past few months (yes i'm ashamed!), and it had become severely messy and overgrown.

cleared off my java fern and e.tenellus. then popped down c328 last friday, wanting to get somemore plants. but i ended up with a mere nana. sad. bought a bristlenose, hoping that it'll clean up the algae for me (so far not doing job), and a few feeders to cycle the water.

and then this afternoon, i thought it looked kinda plain, so i moved some of the plants from my other tank to this.

before - 'wild and messy'

after - plain and simple

don't know why, i quite like how it turned out. this theme kinda suits the false stone wall backdrop better. love the woody arch, and how the feeders swim under it. nice! =|

won't be doing DIY CO2 this time, since it's low tech. and i think i may have been too hasty to add livestock in. they don't seem to be doing very well. but what's done is done. only hoping time (and those seachem/potassium doses) can do the job. *crosses fingers and toes*

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finally...

went to watch the spy next door. i was actually looking forward to it, but it turned out abit disappointing, cos the storyline's kinda predictable. and also the fight scenes weren't as realistic as i thought they would be. humor was quite lame, and so not enough. but any movie with SSD is likes. =P

next movie i so wanna watch is hachiko: a dog's story. i had read the chicken soup pet collection a long time ago, and this story was among the very few that left a lasting impression on me. but my all-time fav would be the story of greyfriars bobby. i remember i would tear each time i read the story, one cos it's amazingly touching, and two cos it reminds me of my dog.

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had nihon mura after that. i love seeing a table full of sushi. lols. potato salad changed pattern again. i still prefer the previous one. where's my baby tomato?! i think i'm starting to lean away from dhoby ghaut's and move towards the outlet at singpost. i find they have more variety there. hmmmms.

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then went on a wild goose chase before we finally got what we wanted and headed home.

am beat. nite nite!

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yes i know.

my temper is bad. but let's analyse it again and see if it can be justifiable.

[before that, i have to say that my mood was temporarily elevated when i was doing OT and SSD appeared outside my office. pleasantly surprised. ^^]

was in a totally bad mood the whole day cos of the sicc issue. first thing, design fail. if you wrap yourself in a long-sleeved turtleneck sweater and long pants and go walking under the sun, how not to feel hot you tell me? second thing, ever heard of anyone who wants to play tennis but don't want to get hot and sweaty? damn lame. third thing, i know you have money, but to throw complaints after complaints just because you cannot tahan a couple of degrees hotter? you're making a big fool of yourself you know that?

shan't delve into bigger monetary issues, but these little things are enough to piss me off. contract says we build this, so we build. contract did not say we have to pacify these big babies. i hate wasting so much time and effort for spoiled kids like that.

maybe it IS a little wrong of me to spend the whole day complaining on msn to 媽. as well as the string of vulgarities we exchanged. but hey, ever wondered, why us? project side, anything we kena. payment side, anything we kena. admin side, also we kena. purchase side, also we kena. jb factory side, ALSO US LEH! it's like, we're at the frontline to any shit that comes lor. and anything that passes through us becomes nice and pretty for them.

i don't know lah. i'm so not the suffer-in-silence type. why should i 委屈 myself when i'm not in the wrong?

just like that accident just now. SSD probably don't like me anymore, but why should we stand there and let him shout at us when very obviously it's not our fault? tsk. but since SSD's so cool about it, then i shall be a good girl and not lament so much. hmmmm.

but i will always stick to what i have learnt since young - if you don't stand up for yourself, no one else will. =)

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i miss cher. already.

lols. met her and zhu for dinner @ imm yesterday. i like girly dinners like this. we sat at coffee club for a good 3 hours, just eating, talking and laughing. mad loves. =)

let's talk about the food first. zhu's fish n chips were rather normal, according to her. and i didn't try cher's mustard chicken sandwich, but it sure looked good! salad is nice. oh and their fries also tastes exceptionally nice. or maybe we just happened to have fries craving yesterday. lols.

i settled for panfried (dory) fish, with pasta in lobster bisque sauce. absolutely yummilicious i tell you! especially that sauce! add cheese flakes to that and you have one super-sinful-but-totally-worth-it dinner. *drools*

price-wise, pretty affordable. and the best part? that outlet is almost empty, on a saturday night! guarantee got seats. lol.

i wonder when's the next time we can crap nonsense like this together. they say absence makes the heart grow fonder? i agree. knowing that it'll gonna be 6 months later before i can see her again (even though we usually don't meet very often). that hug so nearly made me cry. awwwwww. so gonna miss her. take care girl!

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hmmmm. went marina barrage again today, equipped with lots of sushi for lunch/dinner. the first time we went, it had rained. this time, it was so so so hot instead. the wind didn't exactly pick up until the late afternoon. so yeah, hot and sticky. =P but still loads of people, and even more so in the shade.

not much things to do since it was only two of us. so just slacked and then headed home. lols.

but i likes. :)

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love his voice!

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p.s. 我愛你

nothing much for the past couple of days. work's still as boring as before. lols. kinda looking forward to company trip, cos i'm one of the game organizers and i can't help but feel so excited when i think of how i'm gonna 整 the rest of them. mwahahahaha~!

tgif today. er......yesterday! popped down plaza sing for...

...this!

lol. i don't know about SSD, but i super super like! =X

got it at a shop called villagesmith, just beside couplelab. and speaking of the latter, i've had many good reviews about them, but was really disappointed in their designs and quality. i don't know lah; just doesn't feel right.

now this one feels more 'solid', and comes with name engraving and choose-able fonts. so so pretty. right?! lols.

i'm happy. :D

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after that met family for night fishing at bottletree park.

the tree cute right? like mushroom. but would probably be nicer in daylight.

view from our spot. night landscape mode is sooooo 高難度s.

it's a catch-and-release pond, but i still feel bad for the fishes. furthermore, instead of the usual one-hook per rod, uncle bryan used 10 hooks for his rod. so imagine my delight when the fishes fought back......until i realized how much it cost him.

he had stepped away for a moment, when a fish took his bait and pulled his entire rod into the water with it. us and some of the staff tried to fish it back but it was almost impossible to find in the dark. so that's 2k bucks sinking to the bottom of the pond. i kinda feel bad for him.

sighhh. i'm half an hour away from going 24 hours without sleep. and my hair isn't dry yet. tsk.

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alvinnnnnnn~~!

super cute and funny show! better than the first one imho. SSD said it was a girls' movie. but if my ears didn't fail me, he laughed even louder than me lor!

i kinda prefer the chipetts to the chipmunks. the way they dance and groove to the music is so much sweeter and chio-er than the guys. argh cute overload! lols. i wonder if there'll be a part 3. =\

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红风车转一转吧

finally finished all 33 episodes of  宮心計 (beyond the realm of conscience). nice! it's the first time tavia plays an evil character, and she's superb at it. lol. and so so pretty! especially her eyes. *羨慕*

overall, totally worth the time spent. and the 片尾曲 that's currently in my head.

2020

happy new year!

abit too late now, but happy 2010!! probably a slightly longer post today, if i can finish it. lol.

abit sian-ed on thursday afternoon. we totally didn't have any mood to work lor. so we decided to tear down the xmas tree. and slack around, praying for boss to say early dismissal. and then at 3.30, A calls up with an order for aluminium scaffolding. and he wants it on Monday. managed to find, and made preparations. then CH calls at 4 to change it to metal scaffolding. as well as the report for sentosa. -_-

and then guess what? boss calls up with early dismissal. hais. panic mode liao. don't wanna go into details, but luckily i had it all settled. gotta thank 媽 and PL for waiting while i rushed things out. hais. i hate last minute.

headed down Central for dinner and settled for waraku. i had the normal seafood ramen while SSD had seafood 拌飯.

at first i kinda regretted getting the ramen, cos it looked so unappetizing and well, normal. lol. i guess it tasted quite alright though. most interesting thing would probably be this.

lol. slacked at riverside for awhile.

liked the breeze, but don't like the crowd. =P

after that walked to esplanade. i think it was only 9 plus, but there were loads of people already 'camping' there for the fireworks. managed to get a 'front seat', and we joined them. lols.

bored. so tested cam.

and spent the rest of the time playing crayon physics. lols.

thank god we went early to wait, cos if we were late, we'd probably be stuck behind some bangala and unable to see the fireworks as comfy (at least for me) as we had.

satio baby, unfortunately, isn't very good at taking fireworks shots. these are the few i salvaged. pathetic, isn't it? >.<

but super nice, super romantic (at least for me), super happy. :D

after that we waited awhile for the crowd to clear, and by the time a path appeared, it was almost 1am? lol. walked down to ocbc and continued to wait for the crowd to clear. cold cold place, so...

...SSD's craving in the middle of the night.

retreated to another warmer corner and slacked to 5 plus. (kena chased off by a freaking big cockroach.) then went down raffles place for the first train. there were soo many people sleeping there lor. *amused* first train was practically full of zombies who probably hadn't slept the whole night. lol. and so totally sehhhed when i reached home at 7 plus. tsk.

(first time staying out the whole night, and i'm surprised dad isn't pissed. lol.)

after the very nice warm bath and not-long-enough nap, i headed out again. to watch avatar. like, FINALLY?! thanks to internet booking, we got nice back row seats, and i so enjoyed the movie. don't know how to describe, just super nice!! hahas. i wish a world like that existed. am not happy that the lady pilot (didn't catch her name) died though. whhhhyyyyy?!

tsk. had nihon mura before that. love that potato salad! :D

and as 1st jan marks our one month......

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am surprised that he actually took the trouble to get the 'must-reserve-de' and expensive blue roses i like so much. =)

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right. back to the more serious stuff now. lol.

last year's new year resolutions:

1. to complete my set of twilight saga, plus midnight sun (when it comes out) and all their soundtracks and dvds. errrrrr...


2. do NOT get hooked on rock music, even though they sound oh-so-lovely in twilight. nope! not hooked! yet.


3. try to stop my obsession with twilight and rob pattinson. ironic. stopped.


4. lose weight. and i seem to have this one every year. yes but not enough.


5. try not to lose my temper at work. uh huh. er..reduced considerably.


6. don’t spend randomly. cancel this. i give up.

so. which brings us to......this year's resolutions!

1. lose weight (into 3rd year now)


2. put in more effort in work, regardless of whether i'll be doing projects or sales


3. balance time for family and SSD (cos family is complaining. lol.)

hmmm. not so many for this year. perhaps because all has been pretty smooth-sailing so far. *crosses fingers and toes*

meeshell is a happy girl.

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