stressed.

having parents like mine sure sucks to the core.

go out with aunts, complain.
go out with friends, complain.
stay out too late, complain.
hang out with friends at home, complain.
don't go out, complain.
talk on phone, complain.
sms, complain.
chat online, complain.
no job, complain.
got job, complain.
do this complain, do that complain.

my my. life's interesting eh? tell me what i CAN do. does anyone understand how much i envy those who have the freedom to befriend people and go out with their friends without having to endure constant naggings or fill up an 'application form' each time i do? does anyone understand how embarrassing i find it to tell people i have to be home by 12am? does anyone understand how much i wish to be out there living life, enjoying myself, learning new stuff, instead of being so-called 'protected' at home? does anyone understand how much i hate to be their puppet?

dad said once, "either you're 21, or you get married." 10 more months. or rather, 303 days and 23 hours to be exact. i need to break free before i go mad. =[

p/s. it's 12. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SASA~! ^_^

i am legend

400th post!! i think i shouldn't be blogging now. not in this state of mind. lol.

had an interview this morning. it lasted for a whopping 2 hrs 15 mins! talked alot, listened alot, did some tests, and yessss..mee got the job. it stated admin assistant, and i thought it was general admin work. but then i found out it was admin for patent, first filing. cheem eh? lol. job scope sounds pretty interesting, but since i have zero experience in IP law, the pay sucks. >.>

met sasa (finally) for dinner. I MISS HER! ^_^ thx sa for earrings, and i hope you like the prezzie too. glad to see everything's going well for you, and you made me sooo tempted to move to aus. zzz. but anyways, since you still have a month before you go back aus, make sure we meet up again k? muacks sasa!!

met gary and friends for i am legend. i felt so bad to 'dump' sa. why did she have to have seen that movie already?! and why does everyone i know seem to have watched it already? neverminds sa, next time i'll leave one whole day for you. LOL!

from the comments some people gave me about the show, i was very looking forward to watching it. sad to say, i didn't realize it was a horror movie. =.= i think it's one of the few times i actually dared to watch horror flicks at the cinema. i don't even watch them at home. haish. i feel cheated. i bet wendy feels the same. =X storyline was rather interesting though, and pretty realistic. poor sammy. f4.

after that went to harry's. i feel bad for dragging matthew & wendy along. =( first time i tried long island at harry's. wah really bth sia, 3/4 glass nia giddy le. tsk. but there's no coke taste at all, so i suppose that's the original version? haha. i shall practise raising my alcohol level with harry's long island.

i think i was a little 失常 later on. alcohol-effect ba. i hope i wasn't sprouting nonsense. i didn't, did i? i don't think i'm thaaat bad right? lol.

i should be meeting zhou gong anytime soon. xD

back to sq 1

after all that we've said and done, i can't believe i'm actually back to square 1!? i thought it finally ended when you said you wanted a breakup. i guess not. why are you still referring to me as your gf? i don't want to be! i hate meeting all your friends. why do i have to meet their expectations as well? why do i have to be scrutinized and commented on by them? i want to please myself, i -have- to please you, and now i -have- to please them too? oh wtf!! zzZz.

I AM NOT YOUR BLOODY GIRLFRIEND ANYMORE! why do i have to be pressured by it? why are you expecting me to do what a gf does, when i'm not one anymore? this thing has been dragging on for so long; you're not the only one miserable. i really don't know what to say anymore. sometimes i really hate you lar. dammit!