happy valentines day!

valentines falls on the first day of CNY this year. that's why even though it's only 2 weeks away, i'm in no v-day mood. cos i haven't bought new clothes!!

went shopping with 媽 and 親愛的. walked half the day at parco, bugis street, OG, and the many random little shops around the area. and went home with 2 tops. for casual wear only lor! hais. must 加油 liao.

and so so tired. feet, back and shoulder aching badly. 不認老都不行了。plus the hot sun and passing shower. argh!

我忍忍忍！！！

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currently so hooked on this oldie.

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...我也有我感覺，難道要遮掩...

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sway 到極點

super x100 bad day today!

early in the morning, i was trying to move the stack of drawings that hel had commented on in yesterday's meeting. when i don't know what happened, it slipped out of my hands and fell all over the floor, successfully breaking my last fingernail in the process. was horrified at how deep the nail broke. snipped off the broken nail, stared at the rest, and snipped all of them short. sb heartpain since i was keeping them for CNY. and did i mention the nailbed bled? =(

was looking forward to nights out in town with SSD, to cheer me up. when he said he was STILL sick. i suggested meeting him for dinner at kovan, which was near his place. was already damn sian. after that he said he would go see a doc. so i suggested he stay at home then. damn f***king sian liao.

then 媽 snatched a piece of paper through my fingers, and it neatly sliced quite a deep cut in between. damn pain when it comes in contact with water. >.< i know not her fault; just damn unlucky.

felt so lost when i actually didn't know where to go after work. sbs.

and the last straw came when hel seemed to push all the blame to me when it's f***king obvious it wasn't my fault. i don't understand how it can be "i know it's not your MISTAKE..." when she thought it was me who sent the email, to "i won't say that it's a MISTAKE..." when she found out it was actually CH who sent it. so obvious she's on his side. i don't really give a damn if they're into 姐弟戀, but i wish she could be more professional. -_-

and worked till 8plus. so not fun.

please let there not be any hiccups tomorrow. *crosses fingers and toes*

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what is fair?

i find that so sweet. ^^

i should have taken up his offer. cos it was almost 830pm when we reached singpost and i was so so starving! >.< all thanks to the 'last minute' 2-hour admin meeting with hel. again.

1 and a half year ago, i really believed it when she said we could go to her if we had problems. 1 and a half year later, i realized - she was the root of our problems. i learned not to bring up anything at meetings cos any problems we faced, she would find a way to rebuke and make it seem like it is our fault.

especially ever since the manager CH came on board, she depended on him for practically everything. it pissed me off that at today's meeting, she actually became very agitated and defended him so strongly when accounts side brought up some problems they had with him. 親愛的 was about to cry already and she continued pressing her without even giving her a chance to explain.

so angry! shouldn't she be on our admin side instead of project's side? she still had the cheek to say "i'm not trying to protect anyone, but you must try to understand his situation and empathize." like F lor. so who's gonna empathize us? -_- and she made it sound like we're not busy at all lor. zzZz.

all 5 of us were grumbling as we walked out, continued grumbling on the bus there, and all throughout dinner as well. super super fun venting our frustrations together, poking fun at the 四角關係 of the management, and stuff like that. if there's anything good about hel, it would be bonding us together.

lols. the meeting had turned our steamboat dinner into sushi dinner but i don't mind. i could satisfy my sushi craving, and it's cheaper! not even ten bucks for a super full dinner. uber shiok! :D i love the suki group. boycott sakae!!

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why does time pass so fast? am getting pretty freaked out by sunday. O_o

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