Sunday, August 31, 2008


Saturday, August 30, 2008

yet another apology

yes yes, this time to jx.

was supposed to meet him today, but another last minute meeting cum training session caused me to fly aeroplane again. it lasted almost 6 hours, ending around 9pm. :(

i feel very guilty. 2nd time in the month i've made people wait so long for nothing. haish. lucky they both didn't stay angry at me for long. thank you to both of you! *muacks*

quite pissed at first. not because i have to stay back, but because i have to miss my appointment. i think she knows when i'm going out, then she purposely make me stay back. tsk.

anyways...even though she kept repeating the same stuff to me, she did mention new stuff, which apparently, is part of my work scope. guess what she said?

"stanley like you a lot leh. he say you look like those who can take up challenges one. that's why he wants liping to slowly teach you her work scope also."

result of being too gei-kiang. -.-

so now i have to do admin, purchasing, project co-ordination, accounts costing, quotation enquiries and sales & marketing in time to come. let's see how much they're gonna up my salary.

ho sey. really ho sey.

since i missed out on pubbing tonight, i shall drown in something more 'high-class'.

p/s. let's just hope my sacrifices are worth it in the long run.

Friday, August 29, 2008

fruitful life?

this is bad. had jack's place yet again today, thanks to complimentary vouchers that expire tomorrow. -.- must diet liao! i wish it'd stop raining. i need to swim! :(

work sucks more and more. :\

urgent meeting before lunch freaked me out. i thought got what big problem, turn out it's only a normal meeting. didn't quite understand what boss was saying, but it did help me a little with the projects i'm handling. bah.

i hate it when work or meetings come in at the end of the day. i hate it when work eats into my personal time. i hate it when i have to sms my engineers and managers and yet i don't get mobile allowance.


something weird i realized though. have been going out after work and returning late for the whole of this week. i'm tired, but yet i feel life isn't that boring as before. appointments after work also keep me motivated during the day cos i have something to look forward to. hmmm...

ahhh wth. i shall not think too much and keep my brain cells for work. tata.

yes i'm lame.

p/s. muacks lin! ^^

Thursday, August 28, 2008


when i saw huilian for the first time, there was this weird sense of familiarity about her. initially i thought she looked abit like ying, but then there just that something missing. only today did i realize, she's like shuhui, which explains the sense of familiarity. man i haven't seen that girl for 2 months. *reminds herself to ask her out next week*

ahem. with jack's place yesterday and tony roma's today, i'm turning into a horrible carnivore! :( i guess i better go veg this weekend.

but at least i tried something new today. along with the usual singapore sling and long island, i had one of the house cocktails - frozen cadillac top shelf romarita! (i think...)

it tastes pretty light and refreshing, as compared to the other too-sweet fruity cocktails. i forgot to see what it's made of; tequila i think. it's even better if you don't use the straw, because of the salt-rimmed glass. i still prefer my bitter long island though.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


sudden craving for 铁蛋. anyone going taiwan? pls buy for meeee!?! (pepper-flavored one!) :P

Monday, August 25, 2008

地久天长 forever & ever

Though born with hemophilia, Siu Fu is determined to make his name as a writer. He faces the challenges with the support of his mother. Just as his career gathers momentum, Siu Fu contracted HIV. With his days numbered, Siu Fu comes to terms with his fate and finds inspiration for his greatest work.

based on a true story. pretty touching.

if you knew how much time you have left in this world, would you make use of your remaining days to fulfil your dreams? i would. but who knows what's gonna happen tomorrow? if tomorrow never comes...

if i died tomorrow, how much regrets would i have?

Friday, August 22, 2008


just the other day, i was at cwp with my parents for dinner. after dinner, i couldn't finish my drink so i thought of getting a cover and taking it home for my bro. as we walked to the drinks stall, my dad was hovering at the back of the queue trying to figure out how to ask for a cover without looking like he's jumping queue. amused, i walked to the counter, vied for the attention of the cashier, and got the stuff i wanted.

when i walked back to him, he said (in mandarin)

"wah now you faster than me liao ah! last time you would be waiting for me at dunno how far away."


felt a weird sense of pride.

during shopping, my mum saw this hand rest.

well, not exactly this one. hers was more of a bun with a smiling face on it. it looked really really real. could tell she liked it a lot, but wasn't too willing to waste 5 bucks for it. so i bought it for her.

felt another weird surge of ecstasy. -.-

i think i've been too dependent on others for too long. unknowingly, when i'm finally beginning to stand on my own feet, it feels kinda weird...and yet i'm glad to be taking care of others for a change. it's probably still a long way to go, but at least it's a start. :)


was chatting with jx, someone whom i met long long time ago on an online fish forum, and haven't been contacting for a long long time as well. he keeps shrimps too.

jx: eh i still remember something you taught me.
me: oo? what?
jx: you teach me when marine fish got itch, must feed garlic.
me: wah you still remember sia!

honestly i've forgotten already. it's been many years since i last kept marine fishes. nice to know someone remembers what i said. haha. although, IT'S NOT FEED GARLIC HOR!! actually, you have to soak the food in garlic solution before feeding it to fishes that are down with itch. it builds up their immune system to fight the itch. lol.

anyway, he's willing to pei me pub despite being not too fond of alcohol. yay!! ^_^ v

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

30 real feelings

1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over).

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how to react to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.

18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.....

19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.

26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

jiayou guys~! :D


my recent addiction to curry and tomyam has caused me to be on mc for 2 days. glad to be off work, but i sure hate the throbbing head and infected throat. -.-

been handling munchkins every night, but he still seems pretty scared when i hold him. feeling kinda worried and unsure since i've never had this problem at all before. hopefully it's just the new environment and bedding problem, which can be solved easier than some sort of personality problem. bahx.

FTLY is almost done. gonna miss this drama. "便利贴女孩已经得到幸福了。"


Saturday, August 16, 2008

love at first sight

i think i'm in love ...







it was love at first sight ...







with him ...








met cher at clementi to collect the little bundle of joy. she brought all 4 for me to choose. the moment i peered into the cage and saw him sleeping, (i think) i fell in love. after dinner, i picked them up one by one. there was a satin one whose fur was very much lovely, but for some reason, i only liked him. i kept chanting, 'i want this one, i want this one, omg i want this one.' lolx. thanks cher for the dear. :)

i wanted a female one, but unfortunately all were male. neverminds though; i just want one to give tlc. initially wanted to name him ham-ham, cos he looks like the ham-and-cheese sandwich i used to eat. so nom-able! (he's light grey with a white band in the middle.) but since his mum is called princess (i think), i figured ham-ham wouldn't be too suitable for a my prince.

so now, his name is

munchkins !

yes yes, not much better, but at least munchkins is a historical name! i have weird names for my prized beloved hammies. ginger, russbabe, now munchkins. hehe. shall give my munchkins some time to get used to his tank before i begin to try getting him used to me. he looks abit freaked out at the moment. hmmm.

Thursday, August 14, 2008


very much inclined to complain about work but i shall be nice for once and not tarnish whatever little positive reputation they have left.



Tuesday, August 12, 2008

loves :)

this made my day.
my favorite cantopop singer.

Monday, August 11, 2008

sunday so fast

deleted the previous post cos..well i really shouldn't have blogged when i'm feeling 'high'. hope no one saw what i wrote. =x

it's sunday! i hate sundays. i hate weekdays. i hate work.

the end.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

tgif, at last

feeling abit sore cos i pulled out from the genting trip that my whole family went so i could enjoy a late nights out with the gals, but kena pangseh! okay shall not complain about that. *remembers pl* so..yeah, it's friday night, i have until sunday with no one to nag at me if i stay out late, and here i am rotting resting at home.

since my alcohol craving is here and my long island isn't, i shall drown in chivas again tonight.


it's 08/08/08 today! a day that comes once in a century. i'm looking forward more to 09/09/09 though. such a nice number. hahax.

anyone tried mushroom pot before? gals, next dinner change to this can? =x

random x3 today. super shag and going-to-be-drunk-soon. nite!

Friday, August 8, 2008

dedicated to pl~

today's post shall be partly dedicated to my dear dear pl!

we were supposed to meet up for movie but due to my last minute 5 hour meeting which ended only around 8.30pm, i had to pangseh her. and i could only reply her messages after the meeting. i feel soooooo guilty can. i did that to one of my oldest friends! kill me please. and you know what she said?

"i'm not angry lah silly girl .." omg i wanna cry liao lah!

tickets wasted: 20 bucks
friends like pl: PRICELESS!

*hearts* my lin~!


now for the culprit. the meeting cum training session started at 3.30pm, and since i'm new to this industry, i was pretty curious about the whole project thingy, and thus had helen explain some of the construction stuff to me. by the time she finished, i was horrified to see it was almost 5pm already! initially when she started on the work process, i wasn't paying close attention cos i kept wondering when i could slip out and perhaps sms pl to cancel the date. as she carried on and on, i got drawn into it, partly because it's interesting, and partly because it's my job scope. i have to pay attention!

when it was finally over, i almost fainted when i saw 8.30pm. i felt sososo bad seeing pl's messages, but actually, i was quite glad i didn't leave halfway. i guess they were impressed by my 'enthusiasm' for learning the ropes. hopefully they'll be less harsh when i really start on the projects. *cross fingers*

had a little chat with anton, my agent, this morning too. he said that right from the start, they were already impressed with me during the interview. which left me baffling since i had absolutely no idea what i did, unless turning up an hour early is praise-able. the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment. with all the pressure from myself and the company, i can already foresee more breakouts. =(

please give me the strength / determination / courage / whatever i need to do this job well. (and not get scolded!)

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

work sucks :(

skipped lunch, which meant i flipped through the same 20 pages of contract for 8+ hrs. pro eh?! -.-

starting to feel very pressurized cos there's so much to remember, so many little details to take note of, and so many people to talk to/call/liaise with. i'm kinda overwhelmed with all the new information here at RT. it's scaring me cos i don't know if i'm up to it at all. i've never felt like that at all the previous places i've worked, not even at the legal firm.

the irrational half of me wants quit and escape back to comfort zone, while the logical half's trying to convince me that i should stay because comfort zone is not gonna take me anywhere.

oh gosh, i miss studying.

dad keeps saying i should leave only after gaining a couple years of experience. leave for a bigger company where travel opportunities are aplenty. i feel he just wants me to realize his dream for him. the top - is that where i'll be happy?

pet shops want experienced people. training lessons at the singapore kennel club costs a 4-digit fee. zoo/night safari/birdpark thinks i'm overqualified for a normal zookeeper. vet courses are overseas and f**king expensive. is there really no place for me at all?

oh wells.

my usual day:
10 hrs = at work
2.5 hrs = travelling
4.5 hrs = sleeping
3 hrs =
2 hrs = online..gaming
2 hrs left for my pets!

can you believe i'm wasting so much of my precious 24 hrs on useless stuff? work is never-ending; why do i have to spend a freaking TEN HOURS at work?

more time at work = less time at home = less time with partner = less time to make babies = government's plan to increase birth rate PHAILED~! there should be a rule to make the official working hours 9-5, and another rule to make OT illegal.

yep. *prays hard*

Monday, August 4, 2008

why do i...

...always lose at mahjong? am i just plain unlucky or are my skills really that bad? boo hoo. i sure hope '赌场失意,情场得意' is true. );

good question. where am i now? where is the right place for me? lost...

Sunday, August 3, 2008

i think...

...i need to stop drowning myself with chivas regal,

even though 借酒消愁-ing after losing at mahjong is a valid point.
even though dad wants me to finish up his ancient, keep-for-dunno-how-long hard liquor.
even though i enjoy drinking in my room lit by a couple of candles. how romantic.
even though saturday nights at home are the best times for drinking.
even though i love being half-drunk, love how my head spins, love how i can't stand straight, and love how i actually allow myself to think of him.

i should stop. i don't want to think of him.

riiiiggghhhtlots of hidden meanings. proves how drunk and incapable of thinking straight i am just right now. i hate every 'this time of the month'. i hate feeling emo. i hate the breakouts. period. i vaguely remember a particular conversation with a friend. i think he said whenever i have pms, i behave extra bratty/cranky/hard to handle, or something like that, but yet i don't know it myself. really meh? i know pms is no good reason, but please, if ever it happens again, excuse me. :)

anyway, this is old news, though apparently i just found out today. on one hand i think it's pretty sweet of the guy, but on the other hand, isn't it pressurizing? what if she didn't want to marry him? would she reject him and cause him to be embarrassed, or agree just in order to save him some face? nevertheless, it's sweet. lol. omg if my last day at ntu was one or two days later, i would probably have the chance to hear first hand about it, as the convocation took place right beside the admin building! geez.

on a happier note, 2 more weeks to small bundle of joy. excited!!

Saturday, August 2, 2008


好不容易过了第一天。好无聊啊!一整天就读着那叠资料。说了如指掌不是,一知半解也不是。咳~ 还好今天不是星期一。有点恐惧下个礼拜,因为要开始接管真正的project了。怕怕!同事们都蛮友善的。起码不用一个人吃饭。哈哈!老爸也答应每天早上送我上班。好耶!^_^ 希望我会一切顺利。加油!


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