my mood today.

bad. i must have eaten something wrong at dinner last night. was suffering from stomachache all the way until midnight. then it became headache, nausea, backache and stomachache. obviously, i couldn't sleep the whole night. even after vomiting out the contents thrice since 2am, i'm still feeling like shit now. =(

let's do the maths.
1...headache+vomit+backache+stomachache = grouchy
2...can't level up = grouchy x 2

so, 1 + 2 = super grouchy me

please don't disturb me today. i snap.

update : doc says it's either mild food poisoning or gastric flu. it feels like both. f4.

random post.

came across this song by weilian. really nice. i can't help but listen on repeat. besides the fact that his singing has indeed improved, the lyrics are pretty meaningful too. for some reason, it reminds me of him and our poly times. ahhhh~~

我不是爱听你嫌我闷 只是为多看你眼神
此刻幻想和他对调身份

他比我讨好我都承认 那么容易让你心疼
无论我有多诚恳 还是没资格竞争

贪心人我知道我会输他几分
好知己那麽多都成不了恋人
做情人没天份
对爱我却比他更加奋不顾身

只想做个普通的人
却普通到没有爱情肯为我转身
做不到一百分 但却爱的虔诚
想成为你爱的人

就算做个普通的人
却想给你最暖的体温最深的吻
无论你肯不肯 我甘心作陪衬
为你保留那对爱的天真

他身边总是不缺情人 你需要拥抱说一声
什么原因我都不会过问

我不能给你要的情份 却也微笑着做好人
当自己有梦有真 表演单恋的剧本

谁认真谁强忍时间他会作证
他精采我沉闷什么都愿牺牲
当相爱和失恋同一天发生
我还是选择去等

只想做个普通的人
却普通到没有爱情肯为我转身
做不到一百分 但却爱的虔诚
想成为你爱的人

就算做个普通的人
却想给你最暖的体温最深的吻
无论你肯不肯 我甘心作陪衬
为你保留那对爱的天真

只想做个普通的人
却普通到没有爱情肯为我转身
做不到一百分 但却爱的虔诚
想成为你爱的人

就算做个普通的人
却想给你最暖的体温最深的吻
无论你肯不肯 我甘心作陪衬
为你保留那对爱的天真

无论你肯不肯 我甘心作陪衬
总有一天爱情他会成真

happy birthday to mee! ^^

first & foremost, need to thank {family, sherry, judy, taufiq di, kai, linz, yingg, xia mei, sasa, yanzhu, cher, shuhui, jolin, logas, nagend, gary, michelle..} for their birthday wishes and prezzies. sorry if i've missed anyone out; you know i still love you. LOL.

alrights now. met logas and nagend this afternoon at vivo. i miss her! also got a few years din see her liao lor. she hasn't changed much, she said i din change much either. hahas. went food republic for lunch. she didn't want me to treat her, so i guess i just have to wait till the next time i see her. thanks nagend for drinks and dessert too. can see he was bored. poor thing. i feel bad, for taking up their private time. hahas. but anyways, really nice to see her again. from her stories, working as a nurse sounds pretty fun. xD

she wanted to buy her studs, so we walked around trying to find some. finally found chameleon, and guess what i saw? hairbands! hahas. okies i'm lame. i've always wanted to try hairbands but can't find a nice one. lucky i had great hairstylist logas with me this time. i'm happys. ^^

then met gary for dinner. finally satisfied my subway cravings. black olives rule! muhahaha~ also went to toy'r'us. no peekaboo eeyores this time tho. sadded. played pool awhile. kns him lor. bully me nia. it was harry's after that. at last, i manage to get some alcohol. lol. ordered pina colada, but it tasted abit weird. maybe the coconut they used was bad. =X

oh wells. i'm 2o. sobs.

went for birthday dinner with whole family. wanted pubbing but nobody to pei. sadded. i wants my alcohol. f4. dunno why no mood. mahjong le. bye.

met cher and zhu at central for dinner. went billy bombers. milkshake was yummy! (but sho sinful.)

[ fish & fries ]

[ lamb shank ]

was supposed to go pubbing but since it seemed that we weren't in the mood for that, we had to skip it. then met gary & his friends to go jamming, but the studio was closed. lols.

thanks gals for the prezzies, and for all the laughter during dinner. and yes cher, you brought out the bitch in me. muhahaha~! muacks you all! ^^

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finally finished watching 'detective academy q' today. 45 episodes! whoots~

"because there is light, the dark seems that much darker. because there is dark, the light seems that much brighter."

true?

lalala~ went out with sherry and judy at great world city. had dinner at say cheezecake. the food was yummy! ^^

[ lobster bisque ]


[ laksa chowder. this one's nice! ]


[ seafood linguine ]


[ it doesn't look like it, but it's beef udon. uberlicious! ]


[ er..beef & cheese burger? lol. ]


[ baked mango crepes. heavenly! ]


thanks for the prezzies. =)








[ camwhore. forgot to take with judy. -_- ]

thanks for everything! including all the talks. haha. 爱死你们了! ^^

p/s. happy 20th birthday yingg! & good luck for your exams.
p/p/s. to anyone that's interested, i have deleted my friendster account cos i'm lazy to bother about it. my blog's all i need atm. lol.

since {eskimo kisses} is apparently 'offensive', i've changed it to {sweet memoriies} instead. song is sweet memories by olivia ong. go here if you want it. my mood is so totally ruined.

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had quite a lot to blog at first, but somehow i've lost the mood to. so i'll just put them in random points.

#1: introducing crunchyroll.com! it's by far the best site to watch anime and drama series. although it's free, you still have to sign up to watch. but it's worth it. shinji should pay me for promoting her site. =P

#2: those who like detective shows, try detective academy q. very nice.

#3: i just found out that, under the penal code, it's an offence to seduce a married woman, but yet it's not an offence to seduce a married man. LOL.

#4: received an sms from mel this morning. "pls show interns ur techniques of chasing as till now still no ref check replies since u left." muhahaha~! now you know i'm important? and to any relevant people reading this now, please for god's sake, COMPLETE those reference checks that are being sent to you. don't make things hard for other companies can?! zzZz.

#5: one more week of slacking left. f4.

[ eros; master of levitation ]

p/s. looking forward to the dinners/pubbing this weekend. =)

p/p/s. you can either stand up, be a man and take it in your stride, or continue willowing in self-pity. since you chose the latter, i have nothing to say. period.

new blogskin: {reflections}

that girl looks so...sweet and sad. when i first saw that photo, i knew i had to use it. theme was from an all-time fav song, reflections by christina. it sorta fits, i guess.

"why must we all conceal
what we think
how we feel?
must there be a secret me

i'm forced to hide?"

pretty tempted to submit this skin, but i don't want anyone to be using the same skin as me. =P oh wells. just a little note, it looks wayyy better in firefox. internet explorer just sucks lar.

p/s. i miss you sasa. when are you coming back?
p/p/s. 85% tnl and to hawk. gambatte! ^^

new blogskin: {reflections}

that girl looks so...sweet and sad. when i first saw that photo, i knew i had to use it. theme was from an all-time fav song, reflections by christina. it sorta fits, i guess.

"why must we all conceal
what we think
how we feel?
must there be a secret me

i'm forced to hide?"

pretty tempted to submit this skin, but i don't want anyone to be using the same skin as me. =P oh wells. just a little note, it looks wayyy better in firefox. internet explorer just sucks lar.

p/s. i miss you sasa. when are you coming back?
p/p/s. 85% tnl and to hawk. gambatte! ^^

as the song 'open arms' came on air, i can't help but think back of those year 1 sign language lessons with yean. how we started joined basic sign language together, how we laughed and poked fun at those signs, how we memorized the signs, how we practised the song together, how we both refused to perform on stage, and those fun times we had. i can't believe 3+ years of friendship will come to this. gals, if you happen to read this. i'm really sorry for everything that happened, though i don't know what i can do to make things less awkward between us. but heys, if because of that you don't want me in your lives, i guess it's okay then.

same to everyone else. if you don't want me in your lives, just stay away from me. don't have to bother entertaining me. =)

haiz. i bloody hell need a pet. f4.

have removed the previous post cos thinking back, i guess it wasn't really necessary. to those that have been cheering me up (di), thanks a lot. i appreciate it. to many others, well, i don't care what you think anymore. i can't be bothered to explain. think the way you want. i shall continue to live contentedly with whoever wants to stick with me.

[ this doesn't look like me at all ]

met aunt at central in the afternoon. sad to say i've never been there before. i guess it's kinda new or smth? cos many of the shops weren't even open. saw alot of dresses and tops and shorts that i liked, but sho expensive. oh wells. and there were LOTS of japanese restaurants too! didn't know which one to choose. lol. we finally settled on waraku pasta. saw another branch at marina long ago, and have been wanting to try it ever since. at last got chance liao! creamy pasta + umeshu (jap liquor) + tiramisu&icecream = satisfied me.

walked to audio house after that. passed though alot of pubs. shall go there sometime. =)

went suntec. aunt bought her fan. me bought a top. super low-cut. me likes. then popped down harry's@esplanade. aunt got madame butterfly; me took bloody mary. love the tomato juice, didn't really like the tabasco. but haiz, it's apparently the healthiest cocktail around. lols.

p/s. olivia ong's voice is so smoothing. listen to her. =)

i'm sick of all these. i really wish all these didn't happen. i wish things could go back to like before; before you stepped in my life. now that it's already over, why can't i live in peace still? =(

you say my friends can ask me out so easily and yet i'm reluctant to go out with you. true. because i'm happier with my friends. i don't have to act and pretend. i can be myself when i'm with them. i'm so tired of forcing myself to entertain you, every single time. isn't it pathetic that a relationship is built on both of us entertaining each other? like you wanting to pick me up, you wanting to bring me to meet your friends, and you wanting to stick together 24/7. i know it's not your fault; you're just being yourself. we're just not compatible.

i hate it when you drag me along to meet your friends, or when you insist on picking me up. they're your/my friends; don't you feel the awkwardness in the air? can you really enjoy yourself? i can't. you force yourself not to pick me up, and i force myself to entertain your friends. what's the point?

and do you respect me as your gf? or do you merely see me as your girl whom you can rightfully touch? and in public too. i've told you many times i don't like it, when have you listened? where has that basic respect gone to? i feel like a whore. =_=

that sms. i really don't see how it equals to fighting for us. to me, it's just plain stupidity and disrespect. you're dealing with my parents. you follow their rules. if they say i have to be back before 12, you're supposed to bring me back before 12. and not kick up a fuss and tell them they should give me more freedom. you say you know you're in the wrong, but do you know where have you gone wrong?

again, that sms. to her. what kind of person would joke about something like that? maybe you do it often back there (i don't care), but first, that's my friend. second, do you know her that well? well enough to send this kind of bloody sms? and what did you say after that? you said you didn't know she cannot take a joke. you said all your friends can. you asked why my friends all so petty one. that's a nice one. thanks for insulting my friends. and after you knew i lost her (them), you said i'm better off without them. thanks a lot.

do you want me to continue? i'm not some kind of puppet you own. i already try to do what you want when i'm with you, can't you just let me off when i'm out with my friends? and so, i'm only allowed 3 hours with them? i'm only allowed to have dinner or lunch with them? i can't go walk walk after that? i can't chat longer with them? i have to report every thing i do to you? fuck off.

i don't understand why you like pulling people into our problem. you can involve your friends and family all you want, but i would appreciate it if you leave mine alone. and please, insulting my friends is enough, don't have to do the same to my parents.

stop using the 'i left everything back there for you' line. be thankful that because of that, i'm actually still talking to you. because i feel guilty, i can still be friends with you. but if you don't want to, i'm perfectly fine with it. true, i once felt loved, i once felt happy, but now, i hate to say this, i'm happier without you. now that things have come to this, there's really not much of a point to talk anymore. sorry if you can't put up with my princess attitude; i can't agree on yours as well. you want things to end on a sour note, you want to make me hate you, so be it.

to everyone else, friend or not : if i've pissed you off, or if you cannot accept me, please, stay away from me. you don't have to entertain me. i don't need that.

first week of slacking. uber shiok! =D i've decided to slack until next month, which is merely less than 2 weeks away.

i really shouldn't have started pubbing. i think i'm really hooked. looking forward to pubbing this week and next! i'll be broke, but...neverminds. =P (i really want to try pubbing with you gals. are you gals still mad at me? f4.)

oh wells. everyone, listen to that song at the side. it's real by olivia ong. nice hor? anyone has that song? send me pweese? lol.

thanks *yr best fren* for the erm, advice. i may not know who you are (or do i?), but i know a lot of people are concerned about me and gary. i appreciate all the talks, as well as those efforts to make us patch up. but those who know me well enough will know that i don't and can't easily share my thoughts and feelings, and not many people can understand me. (at least, i know there's only one who can, but she isn't on speaking terms with me anymore.) nobody really knows what i've been going through these few months, and i'm not about to say. this will sound really rude, but i would appreciate it more if nobody tells me what to do. i believe my friends will know how to show their support the way i want it. as for others who comment without fully knowing every single thing, thanks but i don't need it.

last thing. the ss for gary. grats! ^^

whole lot of pics today. ^^

it started with this...

and then this...

after so long and so many dc-ing (not to mention pissed off)...

and

[ cut cake cut cake! ]

[ me wants that bear! ]


[ wishes from frenz ]








[guildmates ]




[random ss ]

thx all for coming to my 'wedding'. especially those from guild lovefc. =)

finally leveled up at 4.30am. went to play with gunboss. ohko. zzZz.

p/s. happy birthday rl!

[ salmon cream pasta ]

met my aunt this afternoon. had pepper lunch for..well, lunch. lol. there's this new salmon pasta thingy. i found it yucky. not worth at all. don't try!! hahas. went nsc for review. reached at 2.45pm, finally saw the doc at 3.50pm. =)

met ahma and another aunt for dinner after that. we went to this indonesian restaurant at causeway point, the one which was always empty. i thought it was because the food wasn't nice. but it was! on the other hand, the price wasn't. 100+ bucks for 4 people. lucky my aunt got discount. tsk tsk.

went shopping! bought a pair of shorts and this pair of silver heels. it's a little bit tight, so i'm praying its not gonna hurt. wonder why i like to buy heels but don't like to wear them. =\

alrights. i'm tired. tata~

what's this? ^^

[ french toast ^^ ]

[ chocolate, cheese, hotdog, plain? lol ]

hehes. thanks for the nice 'ai xin' breakfast. he said he starting preparing at 6plus this morning. but then since it wasn't originally for me, i shouldn't be feeling too guilty eh? LOL. no lar, thanks alot lor. see you so nice deliver to causeway point somemore, treat you pariss when you come back ba! hahas! take cares there; don't shoot any kangaroos or koalas, and have fun ba. =)

can't wait for 2 more weeks where i can finally meet logas. again, haven't seen her in years! misshiu gurl!

oh yeah, thanks taufiq for those songs. love the lyrics.

p/s. i just got official approval to pub, so gals, when go pubbing again? lol.

was up at 6.15am today. took leave but yet i can't fall back asleep. dad was okay with me taking leave again. in fact, he was rather nice about it. mum was pissed. office will be pissed. mee don't care.

chanced upon this test. bloody true!

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Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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here's the link for the test.
happy children's day btw! ^^

was up at 6.15am today. took leave but yet i can't fall back asleep. dad was okay with me taking leave again. in fact, he was rather nice about it. mum was pissed. office will be pissed. mee don't care.

chanced upon this test. bloody true!

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Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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here's the link for the test.
happy children's day btw! ^^

received this email some time ago. just thought i'd share this.

Who said only human know what is love?

Yes, animals are more deluded because of their capacity of their physical body, but occasionally some of them might be able show us the love that we have forgotten on our 'busy road'. Just like this story.

this is real touching…

[ hey wake up! wake up! ]

A dog was knocked down by a car and died on the middle of the road. Later, another dog is seen beside the corpse of the dog, he tried to wake his friend up using his leg.

[ let's move to the safer side of the road..i'll move you to the safer side! ]

When his attempts to wake his friend failed, he tried to push his friend to the side of the road. But the weight of his friend was proven too heavy for him. Though the traffic is busy and dangerous, he just will not go away from his friend. Just stand beside his friend howling and crying.

A lot of people saw this incident and feel very touched. How even a dog can show his loyalty and love to his friend.