TIRED!

work was alright today. i think i'm getting more stuff to do. that's a pretty good thing. =) getting more responsibilities too. scary, but it sure beats sitting there doing nothing at all. just learnt that shernice will be leaving end of july. which means, i prolly have to take over her duties. karen already hinted to me to learn stuff from her so that i can help karen when she leaves. that sucks. i wonder if i'll be asked to sit at shernice's desk after she leaves. provided i haven't quit yet. hmmm.

met my yean after work at town to collect my certificate. yean ish super nice to collect it for me. lubs my yean. the first thing she said when she saw me was, "你的样子看来很累. 你好像一天比一天憔悴 leh." sho sweet hor? hahas. saw all my results. i din realized i was this bad. lols. sheesh. too late now. i hate to say this, but, WHY DIDN'T I WORK HARDER?! =\

met lissa, mingzhu and yinxia also. super long din see them liao. gonna miss you sa. hope you enjoy it over there. come back liao must meet up hor! =D

tml is friday! yays! i just have to get through 8 hours of work tml, and i can see dear! *happy*

meeshell has a new job!! in addition to being a HR assistant, she has also taken on the role of a cleaner!! yays. =.=

yes yes. yours truly now has to clear dustbins of my colleagues every week. not one, not two, but 5 dustbins! wtf. alice was nice enough to say, "don't lah! don't do this lah. so horrible." haiz. alice dear, you think i want meh? you think i enjoy doing this meh? but big boss open mouth ask me clear, i can say dowan mah?!?! you know how i felt when i was squatting there clearing the bins? you know how much i wanted to just hide under the table until everyone has left so that nobody will see me clearing rubbish? YOU DON'T KNOW!!

i'm so sick and tired of entertaining people the whole day. i hate to smile and pretend to enjoy talking when all i want is the opposite. can i at least have a little bit of peace at home? =(

6 weeks ago, i was beginning to learn to cope with office life. 6 weeks later, i'm still learning to cope with office life. it's so hard. i'm really not happy working there, and i just want someone here for me. someone to take care of me. someone to fuss over me. someone to make me feel that everything is worth it.

but what's the point when you're not here when i needed you?

i'm exhausted. i don't have much energy left. sorry.

meeshell has a new job!! in addition to being a HR assistant, she has also taken on the role of a cleaner!! yays. =.=

yes yes. yours truly now has to clear dustbins of my colleagues every week. not one, not two, but 5 dustbins! wtf. alice was nice enough to say, "don't lah! don't do this lah. so horrible." haiz. alice dear, you think i want meh? you think i enjoy doing this meh? but big boss open mouth ask me clear, i can say dowan mah?!?! you know how i felt when i was squatting there clearing the bins? you know how much i wanted to just hide under the table until everyone has left so that nobody will see me clearing rubbish? YOU DON'T KNOW!!

i'm so sick and tired of entertaining people the whole day. i hate to smile and pretend to enjoy talking when all i want is the opposite. can i at least have a little bit of peace at home? =(

6 weeks ago, i was beginning to learn to cope with office life. 6 weeks later, i'm still learning to cope with office life. it's so hard. i'm really not happy working there, and i just want someone here for me. someone to take care of me. someone to fuss over me. someone to make me feel that everything is worth it.

but what's the point when you're not here when i needed you?

i'm exhausted. i don't have much energy left. sorry.

i ish sho tired again. haish. slept at 2plus again last night. woke up feeling like a zombie this morning. totally no mood to go to work. but i still endured the journey there. decided to take half day leave, go back home and sleep.

i wonder if it's just me, but i think after i told melissa that i wanted to take half day urgent leave, she started giving me lots of work to do. i kept walking around, finding people, passing/collecting documents, zapping stuff, and answering calls, that i barely sat down for 15mins straight. lols. i wish i could be this busy for the whole day.

was supposed to leave at 1pm, but jean told me i could go off at 12. i felt bad leaving mel there alone, so i stayed until 12.30, when even mel asked me to leave. tsk tsk.

wanted to go home and just cook maggi, but in the end gave in to temptation and indulged in kfc and cheese fries. lols. regretted it though. i updated my bankbook, after a very very long time. realized that i've really been spending alot. haish. but hor, i don't seem to know where my money go to leh. i hardly go shopping also. hmm.

i think i better cut down on spending on myself le. i shall limit my lunch to be below 5 bucks everyday. cos, i also just realized that just my transport to and fro alone, is a whopping 88 bucks every month! i think that's where my money went.

i need to put my accounting to use. *digs up old FMGT notes*

haiz. mapled and slept after lunch. 2 hrs of nap is so not enough. i'm still feeling tired. so sad. bleh. my dad came back nagging at me for taking half day leave. seriously, i don't see anything wrong with taking half day leave? i didn't feel guilty at first. (maybe too tired?) but after what he said, i felt something gnawing at my conscience. haish.

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it's not like i put everything down halfway and just leave right?! i make sure i finish all my work on hand de leh. even documents needed for next week i also prepare liao leh. emails to be read and replied, i do le. meetings and interviews to be arranged, i also do le. people to be notified, i did as well. even stuff which mel said is not urgent and i can take my time to do, i also do le. WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT SOMEMORE?! mii ish really tiredx mahs. *pouts*
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i know i know. working life is lydat de ma. but even so, i am not prepared to let myself be 刻薄-ed, unless i'm willing to do so. which in this case, i am not. hrmph. i'm dreading work. =( but i admit i'm getting used to it. even lunching alone by the river, which i first felt was super super pathetic and ke lian, has become more bearable now. not that i like it; i have no choice do i? i can get accustomed to (office) working life, but i don't think i will ever enjoy it.

sorry dear, for saying those things in maple just now. but it's true. argh! i don't know. i don't know how to cope with it. i'm feeling tired. mentally. frustrated. stressed. i just want something simple. i just want to be happy. why has it become so complicated? i don't know when this elastic band will snap. neverminds if you can't come. it's okay, i'll be fine. i'll get used to it. your life doesn't revolve around us alone. your parents know better than me what's good for you. listen to them. i understand.

- needs an escape from reality -

i ish sho tired again. haish. slept at 2plus again last night. woke up feeling like a zombie this morning. totally no mood to go to work. but i still endured the journey there. decided to take half day leave, go back home and sleep.

i wonder if it's just me, but i think after i told melissa that i wanted to take half day urgent leave, she started giving me lots of work to do. i kept walking around, finding people, passing/collecting documents, zapping stuff, and answering calls, that i barely sat down for 15mins straight. lols. i wish i could be this busy for the whole day.

was supposed to leave at 1pm, but jean told me i could go off at 12. i felt bad leaving mel there alone, so i stayed until 12.30, when even mel asked me to leave. tsk tsk.

wanted to go home and just cook maggi, but in the end gave in to temptation and indulged in kfc and cheese fries. lols. regretted it though. i updated my bankbook, after a very very long time. realized that i've really been spending alot. haish. but hor, i don't seem to know where my money go to leh. i hardly go shopping also. hmm.

i think i better cut down on spending on myself le. i shall limit my lunch to be below 5 bucks everyday. cos, i also just realized that just my transport to and fro alone, is a whopping 88 bucks every month! i think that's where my money went.

i need to put my accounting to use. *digs up old FMGT notes*

haiz. mapled and slept after lunch. 2 hrs of nap is so not enough. i'm still feeling tired. so sad. bleh. my dad came back nagging at me for taking half day leave. seriously, i don't see anything wrong with taking half day leave? i didn't feel guilty at first. (maybe too tired?) but after what he said, i felt something gnawing at my conscience. haish.

[rant]
it's not like i put everything down halfway and just leave right?! i make sure i finish all my work on hand de leh. even documents needed for next week i also prepare liao leh. emails to be read and replied, i do le. meetings and interviews to be arranged, i also do le. people to be notified, i did as well. even stuff which mel said is not urgent and i can take my time to do, i also do le. WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT SOMEMORE?! mii ish really tiredx mahs. *pouts*
[/rant]

i know i know. working life is lydat de ma. but even so, i am not prepared to let myself be 刻薄-ed, unless i'm willing to do so. which in this case, i am not. hrmph. i'm dreading work. =( but i admit i'm getting used to it. even lunching alone by the river, which i first felt was super super pathetic and ke lian, has become more bearable now. not that i like it; i have no choice do i? i can get accustomed to (office) working life, but i don't think i will ever enjoy it.

sorry dear, for saying those things in maple just now. but it's true. argh! i don't know. i don't know how to cope with it. i'm feeling tired. mentally. frustrated. stressed. i just want something simple. i just want to be happy. why has it become so complicated? i don't know when this elastic band will snap. neverminds if you can't come. it's okay, i'll be fine. i'll get used to it. your life doesn't revolve around us alone. your parents know better than me what's good for you. listen to them. i understand.

- needs an escape from reality -

super super tired! >< slept at 2plus last night. dunno why can't seem to fall asleep even though i was tired. haish. 4 hours of sleep is so not enough to last the whole day.

work was alright. had things to do. learnt quite some new stuff today. yays. hahas. work started pouring in at 5pm, and for the first time in 6 weeks, i was rushing my pile of work throughout the whole hour. for the first time in 6 weeks, i didn't realize it was already 6.15pm. lols.

is that a good sign? but i kinda wish they could spread the pile of work evenly during the day, so that i don't have to rush sometimes, and stone sometimes. corine's gonna be on course tml and wed. coincidently, there's a candidate tml and wed as well. haish. i guess i have to help her with them liao. first time communicating with someone of such a high level. sho scary lor. =X

met my yean, ruilan, and hongvan for dinner. korean food ish nice. me likes kimchi! hehe. then went breadtalk for coffee. nice chat we had there. talked alot about looking for jobs, and relationships, and about hongvan's new place. scary lor. i din dare to walk home myself; asked my dad come pick me. lols.

random points :
- i wanna sleep. but my hair is wet. =(
- ruilan reads my blog but never tags. but then again, so do i. :P
- i just told my mum, i miss my girls.

six five four more days! ^^v

omg i can't believe i actually mapled my weekend away. lols. but i guess i'm pretty satisfied with my results. =X still, sorry to those whom i've pissed or neglected, i really really felt like chionging. this is what happens when you're tttthhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiissssssssss near to what you've been longing for since day 1. hehe. oh wells.

today is sunday again. duh. i have work tomorrow. work sucks. but i can look forward to friday. ^^

finally my fave day of the week! I LOVE FRIDAYS! =D

hmms. quite a bad bad day at work. dunno why felt sianz and depressed early in the morning. managed to pia until lunch. today is my aunt's last day at her office, so from now on, i have to lunch myself. please pray it doesn't rain at all. otherwise i have to eat pao. =.= anyways, dunno why i cried while talking to dear. hahahaha. big crybaby sia. tsk tsk.

while i was doing lunch duty, received this weird call from this weird guy speaking with an even weirder accent. so hard to understand lor. he kept asking me to transfer him to a department we didn't have, and since i'm not familiar with the commercial bank side (me ish private bank), i had to look around for help. there was no one there except karen, and she was busy rushing out a report. can you imagine how bad i felt and how pissed she was when i kept asking her for help? haish. stupid guy. WE ARE NOT TELEPHONE OPERATORS! THERE ARE RECEPTIONISTS FOR THAT! =.=

supposed to watch nancy drew after work. someone pangseh-ed me last min. hahaha! no lah. my feet hurt also. but i wanna watch nancy drew. I WANT I WANT!! next week k dear? lols. i love her books. carolyn keene rocks. =P

anyways mingkai, too bad about the pom. you know why my parents said cannot at first? cos, they dunno what is a pomeranian. LOL. my mum said after she check website then she know how cute it was. then she say want. but too late liao. oh wells. lols.

*countdown* 7 more days! ^^

TGIF tml! ^^

i think today is injury-day. when i helped jean to fill her water bottles in the morning, i accidentally got scalded by hot water. i din realize the water was still hot even after 14 hours. that thermos flask is really good! lols. then knocked my elbow against the sharp edge of the cabinet while i was keeping the arch files. poked a stapler bullet into my finger while organizing sets of documents. sprained my wrist mildly when i lifted a whole box of papers onto a high cabinet. my legs hurt from squatting too long while filing documents, and i felt dizzy spells when i stood up. cut my finger from opening the crown boxes after lunch. the cut stings when i wash my hands. )= hurt my back when i tried to move the boxes. even leaves and twigs fell on me while i was just sitting there by the riverside eating lunch. tsk tsk.

but i ish rather happy today, cos it was quite bearable. besides the fact that i had mingkai to pei me sms the whole day (xie xie ni~), i also managed to do quite alot of things today. not bad not bad. of cos, most importantly, i managed to provide good news for dear. (shan't blog into details. not sure if i'm allowed to.) i really hope it works for you. you must jiayou o! for you and for me. =D

i heart you too...

i seem to be on an emotional roller coaster this week.

been sick since the middle of last week. stupid cough and flu. stupid doctor. it evolved to throat infection when i saw another doctor yesterday. zzZz. and after taking the asthma med, my hands were shaking so badly. )= having to go to work made my mood tremendously horrible. i felt so frustrated, crappy, and sucky. when i went for work this morning, i seriously seriously felt like telling them, i quit! i hate working there. really.

being so frustrated, i tend to blow my top at the slightest thing that triggers. unfortunately, i took it out on dear. it wasn't his fault. not really i guess. maybe that incident started it. but i admit my reaction was abit too big. i feel guilty. i shouldn't have added to his problems when he has so much more to handle and solve.

i don't know what to say or do to comfort him. i don't know how to help him out of this mess. he even has to comfort me! what a useless gf i am. :( dear, it's okay if you can't make it this week. or even in the near future. i understand you have alot of stuff to settle first. i'll help if i can. lemme noe how.

p/s. my last toenail came off! whole piece. freaked me out. lucky not pain. i hope another nail grows. =.=

feeling super crappy now. iish upset, and sad, and angry, and confused. wonder why i'm feeling this way. i don't seem to know you at all. or do i not know myself? having my doubts now.. =(

if you're wondering why i'm blogging at this time of the day..yep, i took mc again.

i felt so bad when i smsed melissa. she was nice. told me to rest and that there wasn't anything urgent i had to follow up. but i sure hope they aren't cursing me behind. lols.

missed the 7.45am empty train again, so i had to stand all the way. felt giddy and faint halfway through. maybe also because i stood for quite a long period of time yesterday. managed to pia until raffles place. was sweating like mad. =.= sat there for like, 10 minutes. kept debating whether or not to see doc again, or just try to tahan the whole day. in the end, decided to come back and take mc. besides having no mood to work, i also can't take mc tml and thurs. i'm thinking fri would be more bearable since i can look forward to meeting dear (i hope), so i gave in to temptation today. haish. *guilty*

my dad and i talked about my job this morning in the car. halfway through, he said "but you're so much happier working there." he was referring to my attachment company. i kept pondering about it. true true. even though while working there, i kept complaining, i still enjoyed it. colleagues can make it heaven or hell for you.

i miss those times at sono, where we go for lunch together, walk around sucking lollipops together, joke and laugh together, learn together, and simply just enjoy working together. unlike now. i hardly talk to the rest other than work-related. we have nothing in common as well. i eat lunch alone or with my aunt, and basically just sit there alone doing my work or nothing at all. they only call me when they need me to do stuff. though i admit, corine sometimes offers me tidbits, and karen shares her tips on buying shoes, but..it's still unbearable. )=

i'm seriously stuck between a high-paying, comfortable but sucky job, or aiming towards getting a low-paying, sweaty under-the-sun job which i think i will enjoy. tsk tsk. at first i wanted lots of money so that i can call dear. but since now my parents limit my bill to around 100-120 every month, what's the point right? as long as i make more than 200 each month, it should be enough to last. argh!

oh wells. maybe, i will try for the zoo/night safari job again. keep sending in my resume until they call me up. lols. sooo looking forward to the day when i can finally say byebye to my colleagues and NOT see them again. ^^

i'm feeling down and upset now, and i don't know why.

finished all of friday's work within the first 3 hours. went for lunch. had zha jiang mian. super nice! $4.60 for a big bowl. not bad hor. hehe. miraculously, i had stuff to do after lunch, den went out to buy gastric medicine for jean. shun bian bought flu med for myself cos my runny nose really bth le. got a surprise when jean came back. she asked if i was the one who bought the med. i was so scared i bought the wrong one. then she called me into her room, and said, "thank you so much". waaa stunned lor. hehes. ^^

met my girls after work - yean, jolin, dongyue and diana. sho happy! so long never see dongyue and diana liao. =D they were all waiting for me sia. *paiseh* apparently, yean told them about gary liao, and they keep teasing me about him. hrmph.

went sakae for dinner. didn't really have much appetite, but after seeing all those sushi, i suddenly felt hungry. lols.

after that met yean's friends, then went to play pool. both her friends experts lor. dongyue also know how to play. tsk tsk. left the 4 of us sitting there watching them play. when i left at 10, they were still playing. i guess i would have stayed longer cos i wasn't feeling exceptionally tired like i usually am. and i miss the girls. but too bad there's work tml. spoilsport. =(

by the time i actually finish blogging this, i guess there's no time for maple liao. i sure hope my flu and cough gets better tml. i think melissa kinda got the cough bug liao. oops!

i'm not sure if i'm feeling upset about what you told me over the phone, but i think it's probably related to it. don't worry though, it's my problem. good luck for the appeal results tml. hope you get to study. =)

wah 2 days never blog le. lols. no mood plus nothing to blog. life as a patient is so un-interesting. flu and cough sucks. pills suck. medicine suck. i don't seem to get better after taking them. =.=

i took mc on friday after all. not bad. slept and mapled the day away. haish. work tomorrow liao. sianz leh. for the next month, i must try not to take any leaves or mc liao. tsk tsk.

lols really nothing to blog sia. suan le. i go maple liao. bai`bai.

wonder why work comes in after 5pm. whole day nothing to do, until wanna leave then come. make me cannot leave on time. sianz. oh wells.

went to see doc after work. nice doc, gave me mc for tml. i wonder if i should take. cos if i do, then this week i only go work for 3 days. feel guilty sia. lols. but today 3 colleagues told me to see a doctor, 2 of which reminded me twice. they may be hinting to me that i should get an mc and stop spreading germs all over the office. but i prefer to think that they care. LOL.

when my mum came to pick me up, she immediately asked, 'how come now become so serious? where you caught it from? gary got anot?' i was like, duh? lols.

speaking of dear, today din talk to him at all. )= was really unwell during lunch. croaking so badly that i was praying all morning that i don't have to answer calls. haish. after lunch came the runny nose plus sneezes. jialats lor. sowie dear.

bro's bdae on sat, going out for dinner tml. let's hope i get better by then. lalala~

heard this song on the radio. i like the chorus. ^^

呼...我喜欢就这样靠在你胸膛
呼...我喜欢没有时间没有方向
呼...我喜欢像这样爱的好自然
不用管别人投什么眼光
随你带着我四处的(去)游荡
呼...我喜欢一醒来有你在身旁
呼...我喜欢赖在床上看你喝汤
呼...我喜欢你的手放在我肩膀
像是担心我会消失一样

p/s. bai`bai buddy! take care in ns and have fun in tekong. keep in touch hor! =D

i ish officially sick liao. =( i can feel my voice turning sexy. you know what that means right? haish. how am i supposed to answer calls like that? air con makes it worse. i've been going to the toilet more and more often, because there's no air con there. but i'm afraid the rest might think i'm slacking. tsk tsk. jialats.

work today was sho fun. i stared at the same google search page for more than an hour, only scrolling up and down to make it look like i'm doing something. my eyes were mostly half-closed, sometimes fully closed, and hardly fully-open. i tried to surf the web when i was doing lunch duty and the others were all out. turned out that they blocked alot of the websites. i couldn't get in hotmail, nor friendster, nor even blogger! thank god my blog still works. =.=

as i was scanning some documents, i glanced out of the window and there i saw the singapore flyer, in full view. super nice, even though it's not even half complete. so i went and browsed online about it. apparently, this is what it looks like when it's completed. nice hor? like upside-down diamond ring. hehes.

i wanna go up when it's done. but sure very ex. and i'm afraid of heights. zzZz.

lalala~ nothing else to blog le. misshiu. maple-time! =P

p/s. bought lottery for the first time today. and no, i didn't win. lols.

*cough cough* =(

work was super super boring. lols. yawned like 10 times within the first hour. multiply that by 8 and you have the amount of yawns today. maybe cos it was raining heavily, plus air con. haish. had bao again for lunch. i thought my tummy would start growling soon, but luckily, there were dumplings for teabreak! hahas.

so sad. i think i'm gonna be sick. the cough has started. let's pray the flu doesn't.

last last. dear, this is the song 'guan huai fang shi' i mentioned the other day. ^^

(was sniffing away during lunchtime while talking to dear. i wish i wasn't so useless. i wish i could handle him leaving. i don't want to seem so 'sticky' and dependent. i will try to grow up. i will try to cope with it. i will try to get used to him leaving again and again. i must...get used to it.)

as soon as i stepped into the lift at my place, it started pouring heavily. same with my tears when i went to bathe.

dear went back today. i wonder why 3 days went by so freaking fast. sorry for being such a big crybaby. i didn't promise you not to cry because i knew i would cry. i just couldn't help it. thankfully my bus came first, cos i don't think i can handle watching you leave. i'm soo childish eh? maybe when i get used to not having you by my side, i'll be alright. but at the moment, i just have to bear with it. i'm missing you already. =(

oh wells. just to summarize, dear got me a watch for our anniversary. i lubs it sho much! thx dear. it matches his one too! ^^ see see.

hmms. nice meeting up with ying and lin. more than 1yr never meet le hor? tsk tsk. when go shopping?! hehes. pics. p/s. i iish sho fat. argh!

whatever is to be said, has been said. so i don't think i have anything else to say. waiting for you to come collect your ring. muacks.

hmms. let's see. shan't be blogging about everything that happened today, cos i'm tired. and i wanna maple. lols.

met dear at 11. wah the bus really zhun zhun 11am reach sia. =P thanks thanks my ah gong for bringing me all the way to checkpoint. lubs ah gong! anyway, kinda realized how much i mish dear. quite like the feeling of being a 'normal' couple. lols.

went walk walk at town, met ruilan/yean/hongvan for lunch. kinda weird atmosphere. hmmms. thx yean for the necklace. pweety! ^^ wanted to watch pirates, but the timing was off. so went to dear's friend's house to chill. then went for dinner at crystal jade. thx dear's friend for dinner. i iish feeling bad. =X

after that dear came over to play mahjong. won 2 games but lost a few more, so overall still lose. lols. btw when i went back, they keep asking me about you. hmmms. i hope lunch tml goes well.

hope you liked that necklace as much as i liked the watch. happy one-month anniversary. lols. =D

got back my phone bill. almost 150 bucks. =X they asked me not to call anymore. but they don't understand, that it is what keeps me going. it's the only thing that's pei-ing me. if i have to give up the only thing pei-ing me, i don't know how long i can keep this up. i feel like telling them that i'm not like the other usual couples who meet for lunch or dinner every few days, or spend every weekend at each other's house. i don't get to see dear for goodness knows how long. nor do i get to msn much now that i'm working. they don't understand it's important to me. i don't know if it is for you, but at least, it is for me.

like today. i was sad the whole morning. i was scared it might affect us. but after the call during lunch, i guess i wasn't anymore. previously i had chunks and chunks of stuff to write, but now it doesn't matter anymore. still, i just wanna say again.

sorry dear. dunno what came over me. muacks. cya tml~! ^^

oh wells. work still sucks. i hope i get to go out walk walk buy things everyday. can waste 30 mins leh. lols.

[update]
after my dad and i analyzed the bill, we realized that the overseas part was actually quite okay. it's only because i called during peak hours, which means i'm charged double for those extra minutes. zzZz. but he said, if v019 really works for me, it's gonna be cheaper (rate reduced by half) and i can plan and estimate how much to call each month. if i manage to push it down to below 100 bucks, then it's okay. i guess scorpios understand each other more. hahas.

lalala. i iish happy le. mahjong now, maple later. can't wait for tml. =)

nothing much to blog today.

turned down linda's lunch appointment for tml. i feel so bad. she said she'll call next week to arrange another meeting. i guess i won't be taking her calls liao. lols.

hmms. din mean to 'argue' with dear over the bill thingy this afternoon. i just wanted to lessen his burden since i'm working and he's not. dowan him to feel extra stress from the bill ma. sowie lor~

hope tml fast fast past. one more day! heex. ^^

p/s. bad bad day at work. got 'scolded' by big boss for not asking someone for their extension number, plus gotten snubbed for accidentally making a mistake. iish not happy liaos! don't lydat can?!

HRMPH.

finally i'm past the middle of the week. 2 more days to go! heex.

i said i shan't blog about work, but i'll have to take it back now. lols. work iish bad bad today. nothing to do (again). hmm. a couple of nice little things though. me and shernice got abit friendlier while setting up the laptop. that's nice. did i mention she's super pretty? =D me and sandy got abit friendlier too. she's the receptionist. me and nancy chatted on the way down as well. she's from another department. hahas. that's not bad. at least i have people smiling at me when i walk around, rather than pretending i'm not there. lols.

now the bad stuff. we are not moving after all. when i first came, melissa told me we would be moving downstairs to the 13th floor in july, and that we would be very busy packing the stuff. now that we're not moving, i think i'm gonna have nothing to do in july as well. haish.

my heels didn't make my day better. plasters still hurt. =X but i find the added height something rather nice. hehes. i used to hate wearing heels to school, mainly because my height would stand out in the crowd. i hate that. but now, even with such high heels, i can still easily hide amongst the tall tall ang mohs around. lols.

have always wanted to blog this, but keep forgetting. (short term memory loss.) my colleagues alice and corine always call their children every day. corine would be saying, "did you watch tv? you know you only can watch selected programmes ah. you only can watch half an hour ah." and alice would be like, "if you practise for half an hour on the piano, i will let you use the computer for half an hour. and have mei mei gone for her ballet? did you do your assessments?"

omg lor. from what i know, their kids are like, 7-10 years old only lor. after school still got so many programmes and assignments to do. tsk tsk. how to enjoy their childhood like that? so young then no life liao. sadded.

hmms. now for the random stuff.

when you're talking to someone, always make sure the other person understands it clearly. that was what my aunt didn't do. apparently she asked me to order a bowl of noodles for her, but i didn't realize that was what she said, so i didn't buy her share. LOL. poor thing. paiseh paiseh. =\

i asked my dad about the v019 thingy. he said my line should be able to use it. shall try it out later. if it really works, i can call dear more liao! ^^ btw, he freaking knows it's the cheapest overseas-calling rate around and yet he NEVER TELL ME! so ebil~

i just realized this afternoon, that if you use internet explorer to view my blog, there's a nuffnang ad at the bottom of the side navigations. phew. lols. i don't see it in firefox, that's why i thought nuffnang rejected my blog. hmms. once formal commercial ads are up, please please jio people here everyday can? so that i can earn some more money. muhahaha!

last random point. when i was downstairs just now, i opened the gate for a mother and her daugher. she was having trouble finding her card. guess what she said? "come come. auntie open the door for us already."

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f4, f5!

today was just unbearably unbearable. =\ super bored with nothing to do. (tried to) yawned discreetly more than 10 times. jialat! i seriously wonder what they hire me for. haish. today is ONLY tuesday. 3 more days till the weekend.

went walk walk with aunt during lunch today. bought 2 pairs of heels. happy! i seldom see 'closed' heels that i can fit in, so once i find them, must quick quick buy buy. hahas. i bought the pink one cos it's cheap and i can wear it for work. only 7 bucks. but i sure hope it lasts. i so lubs the other one. white with nice shiny flowery details. machiam wedding heels. super nice! haha. cost me 32 bucks man. i find it a little wasted to wear to work, cos nobody will see and appreciate. but it seems like my life now is office and home nia. tsk tsk. oh yeah, they're super high too. can imagine me waddling like duck when i wear them. =P

jo told me something very interesting today. you know those hooks they put at the back of toilet doors for you to hang your stuffs? she told me those at her office were placed so high that she couldn't reach them. LOL. i'm ebil~

went in my parents' room to get something just now. my dad smoked in the toilet again. whole room cigarette smell sia. no offence to *ahem* anyone, but i couldn't help but wrinkle my nose at the smell. )=

*prays that dear gets to study* it's for your own good. misshiu.

random random. don't know what to blog liao. my life is boring. bai`bai.

i said i wanted to blog, but suddenly i don't know what to blog. lols.

linda from prudential made a lunch appointment with me on friday. i guess she wanted to sell me insurance? lol! she sounded so sincere i didn't know how to turn her down. but i guess i have to in the end. someone teach me how to say so politely that i'm not interested and not old enough to buy insurance on my own! bleh.

when dear told me about her, seriously, the first thought that ran through my head wasn't the fact that both of them might have something on. rather, i was more afraid that dear might expect me to be like her, which i'm not, and never will be. too bad for dear. =X

hmm. shall i blog about work? lols. karen's going on core leave tomorrow. sho lucky! one less pair of watchful eyes to see if i'm slacking anot. hahas. and i feel so paiseh, keep having to ask melissa to give me work to do. haish.

4 more days! ^^
finally can see my gals again. tsk tsk.

p/s. the post last night was just emo. i've already deleted it. if you've seen it, forget about it. if not, it doesn't matter.

dreaded-sunday is here again. hope this week flies past quick quick, and let the weekend drag on as long as possible. 5 more days to seeing dear. can't wait! ^^ btw, i feel bad for making you miss your classes again. when you asked me yesterday if i wanted you to stay till monday, i was seriously stumped. but i guess in the end, i decided to be selfish and make you pei me just one more day. hope you don't mind. =\

went to ah gong's house just now, and aunt jenny was there. when my dad told her i was working at hsbc, she went, "oh dear! why you follow in my footsteps?!" i'm beginning to panic. maybe working in the bank doesn't look and seem as glam as i thought it was. bleh.

was training eros last night. at level 10, he's able to speak human language already, and guess what he first told me? see see.

but today while repotting, he broke my heart. sobs.

lols. tsk tsk. men! (male pigs included.) =P

nothing else to blog. and i'm still hating breakouts. zzZz.

went out to tampines giant this afternoon to get my mp4. 2gb for only 77 bucks! worth it hor? but after i got it, i realized the quality wasn't that good. oh wells. i don't wanna splurge on an ipod or zen, so just have to make do with cheap brandless ones. )= but still, 2gb! all my fave songs should be able to go in. train rides to and fro everyday will be more bearable now. and guess what? I GOT A PINK ONE! yays. ^^

i think i've spent around 200 bucks already. i haven't even gotten my pay yet! >.<

random zilian-ing in the car.

i hate breakouts! i hate dry skin. i hate office aircon. i'm practically aircon-ed for almost 20 hours everyday! except weekends maybe.

room + car + train + office = dry skin + breakouts

i iish more and more ugly liao. =(

p/s. sorry yanling! sorry jolin!

happy one year anniversary to my blog! can you believe it, i've actually been blogging for a year already. whoots~! ^^

shan't blog so much about work cos it's boring and monotonous. i'm practically doing the same stuff everyday. but today was not bad. early in the morning, i cheerfully talked to the aunty who cleans the room, laughed and joked with karen, and was so enthu about setting up the laptop for the candidate. it was the first time i felt time pass so fast. only for the 1st hour though. bleh. nothing much liao.

on the way home, i seriously, seriously considered working for the full 6 months. like what dear said, the money is good. more money = more calls and more pigs! =X

bought my black pig and bow btw. ish sho happy. lubs that piggy. ^^

hmms. during lunch today, overheard this conversation.
him: saw this bag at (dunno where). it's rectangle and quite big. i quite like it. you know how much is it? you won't believe it.
her: how much?
him: 800 bucks!
her: wow so cheap?
(me: -.-''')

then..
her: i saw this bag the other day too. got 2 types, one leather, one nylon. leather one is around 3.5k, so it's out. i settled for the nylon one.
him: how much you paid?
her: special price. 2.5k.
(me: *pengz*)

for the guy, i can't believe it lor. 800 bucks for a bag? omfg. you got THAT much makeup to carry? =P and i bet the gal earns 4-5k a month. 2.5k. wtf. -.-'''

lalala~ yanling's 21st bdae party tomorrow. hope i have fun. but i don't think i'll have much fun. don't really know the rest. but oh wells, yanling was one of my closer classmates, so i'll go. =)

super pissed today.

1. maple ish lag.
2. map got raided at least 10 times.
3. failed 2 70% bow scrolls. now my bow's freaking useless. -.-
4. parents keep nagging about the grad ceremony. zzZz. which part of "I DON'T WANT TO GO" do you not understand?
5. kana scolding for mapling the whole day.
6. my laptop's soooo slow.
7. there's work tomorrow.

bad day overall. why do i have to pretend to be happy when i'm not? why do i have to pretend that i don't mind when actually i do? why do i have to live my life the way others want me to? iish not happy!

let's just hope tomorrow will be better.